I can’t listen to music. Ever since I learned that my brother had in fact passed away, it hurts me too much to listen to anything. Everything evokes too much pain when I hear it, so I am insisting that no one play music around me. Ed loved Shania Twain; she was his favorite singer. He even took me, along with our cousin Dan, to see her in concert in Seattle in June 2004 after my high school graduation. His favorite Shania song was “Forever and For Always.” As much as it will cause me anguish, I know I have to honor him by playing that song at his funeral service.