This week has been dismal for multiple reasons for me. This week ends in the third anniversary of my brother’s passing. This week contained my first experience firing someone. And, it is the week of the Republican National Convention, where I heard so much fear and hatred among the Republican speakers and audience, with the exception of Melania Trump and Ivanka Trump’s speeches, that it honestly made me fear for the future.

I’ve never seen a series of speeches that tried to instill fear in the American public. Usually when I think of Republican or Democratic national conventions, I tend to think of them as a time to instill hope for the future, but these speeches were all about how we should fear for our lives and fear our neighbors and potential immigrant neighbors, load our guns, and defend and preserve what is America. I don’t know what America is if it’s a place that is hostile to neighbors, or thinks that it’s actually an easy feat to immigrate here. The “facts” that were discussed during this convention did not appear to me to be facts, but more lies that try to make people hate Hillary Clinton, who really doesn’t deserve that much hate and is frankly getting a lot of this hate because she’s a powerful woman, and make us hate each other more. It felt hurtful to me to watch these speeches, and it pained me to think of the future ahead of us with a potential leader who has no true game plan at all.

Bill Maher and Michael Moore are right. We’re a nation of people who are idiots who will likely be led by Trump because of our laziness to see the truth and cut through all of the Trump campaign’s bullshit.