On the day that Ed passed, that morning I downloaded the Usher/David Guetta/Ludacris song called “Rest of My Life” and played it on and off throughout the day. I originally thought that this song would be about the next stage in my life career-wise, since I had just resigned three days before. Now, every time I hear it, I just think of Ed leaving this world. I played it on my iPhone during my ride to work this morning, and I started welling up. I want to be hopeful about the future, and like they say in this song, hope that what doesn’t kill me will make me stronger. I want to live for something bigger. Maybe life really is a test as Rick Warren said in The Purpose-Driven Life. Though Ed’s death is the largest tragedy I’ve ever faced, maybe it is a test to show how well I can continue in life despite this happening, and to challenge me to preserve his memory and make sure he did not die in vain. I need to do all this the rest of my life because I love him that much.