It was my first day back at work today, which really meant I had to be at my computer in the second bedroom most of the day, and it was pretty quiet. I only had one meeting with my manager, and the rest of the day was spent doing compliance trainings, reading through new product material, and more trainings around product enablement and new roles and responsibilities. I had a few Slack messages with some colleagues, and that was really it. Given I didn’t have to go back into an actual workplace, it wasn’t as jarring as I thought it would be.

My manager told me that we’re likely having an offsite, either in San Francisco or Denver in August. It would be for about two days. So I immediately started thinking about breast milk transport logistics through the airport, on the plane, and at a hotel. And I immediately started feeling stress about it, especially given the horror stories I’ve read about from pumping moms going through TSA and dealing with clueless and ignorant flight attendants about baggage allowances. These are the things that I never thought much about when becoming a mom that I now have to think about just to feed my baby. What adventures await.

In a world pre-baby, the thought of traveling to San Francisco or Denver for work would have excited me and made me happy. More travel! More miles! More points! Status! Socializing! Now in a new life with a baby, I just feel wary and unsure.