I finally asked my mom today if she was going to tell her two friends from Hawaii coming to the wedding that Ed isn’t here anymore. I’ve been avoiding asking her in fear that she might lash out at me, but she actually seemed very thoughtful when she responded. She said that they will be visiting the Bay Area before the wedding and that she’d talk to them then about it. She even acknowledged how important it was that they know before the wedding. I am slightly in shock we agreed on this so quickly and easily.

A wedding without my brother is getting closer by the day and more real by the minute. I hope that he will be watching over us.