I am plagued with a negative subconscious. When I remember my dreams, which hasn’t happened much in the last month, they tend to either be confusing, conflicting, or flat out negative. Oftentimes I am having an argument, aggressive or passive with someone, and it’s not going in the direction I’d like it to go. Someone is dying in the dream or getting beaten or battered, or I am screaming for some reason.

Because my jet lag is always the worst coming back from Australia, I knew my first few nights of sleep back here would be disturbed, resulting in waking up every few hours. However, what I did not anticipate was that all of Chris’s dreams would literally be about fun and rainbows. In between small snores, he keeps repeating “wow, look at all the rainbows. Look at all the different colors. So many.”

It doesn’t seem to matter whether he is conscious or unconscious, but he always seems to experience better things than I do. Why can’t I have blissful dreams like that?